We have two days to go. These past nine months have fluctuated between seeming like an eternity and flying by. I’ve really struggled these past couple of months with feeling emotionally worn out. Neither pregnancy has been easy on my body. I’ve been discouraged, both pregnancies, to be still vomiting this late in the game (nine months is a long time to feel like you have the flu on a regular basis). Discouraged that I feel like there is so much pain that feels like there is constant bruising between my legs. Discouraged by waking up hourly this past month. And I find myself wishing away this time.
Just the same old, same old in the planner for Friday. 🙂
I was sitting in church last Sunday and was struck by something the preacher mentioned in the sermon… if I trust in God’s sovereignty do I trust in his sovereignty in every circumstance? And I thought, well no, I don’t. I want this time to be over. I’m getting caught up feeling pain rather than enjoying these last few weeks and days with just Drew. And then I felt such guilt. What precious time it is to have just him to fawn over now. Precious time where I can watch him play cars and have him tell me who each car belongs to and where they are going. Precious time where we have time to make chocolate chip pancakes in the morning and I get to watch him take long bubble baths with his letters and toys. I know I’ll get to do all of that after Baby comes but it won’t be exactly the same.
So, I’m learning. Learning to relax. Learning that the constant pain and nausea will be over very shortly and that right now is my time to embrace this precious time with the three of us because in two days we go back to the drawing board and figure out how to do a family of four. 🙂
On a different note, I want to introduce you to Migonis Home’s newest partner and sponsor, Eventful Life:
Jess and Katie, from Eventful Life, do a great job of providing ideas for any event you have coming up… and then throwing in some workouts (because what bride doesn’t need this?), recipes and crafts into the mix. Stop on over to their page and check them out! They will be providing a spring gift basket giveaway on April 22… just wanted to make you excited about that. 🙂
Come back tomorrow ready to show me your projects that you did for under $30!
$30 Thursday here we come!