Is it strange that I was so worried about how things would be when AJ went back to work but it was the day he returned to work when things got better? I should have known… my son thrives on routine. I think he likes the schedule and security. He likes knowing what to expect. After two weeks of fun and visitors things returned to as normal as Drew had known them (with the addition of a baby girl in the house!). He is like me and change, with large life events, isn’t his strong suit. We did breakfast together with just the two of us that day and showered and got ready before she woke up (I had done a 5 am feeding that day). Once Elle was awake I fed her and decided to tackle my fear of running an errand with two kids. We went to Target for one thing and then went home for lunch and a nap…. A morning very similar to pre- Elle mornings. I needed to show Drew that some things have stayed the same… and I may have kept a routine for my own sanity as well. 🙂
The chance to begin again. If your day starts rough, as mine did yesterday, picture yourself starting it over. I took a second yesterday and prayed that God would give me grace with Drew (nothing i was doing was making him happy it seemed). Somehow this gives me a fresh outlook and I’m able to just realize some days we all wake up on the wrong side of the bed.
Remember when I mentioned AJ called that one morning and I burst into tears? I needed to “begin again” on that day and try to forget the rest of the morning happened and then start fresh.